As the wind blew by, as the raindrops fell on my body, I knew the one I love is you. :)
*My Realm*
*All of us are miracles created by God :)*
Feel free to roam the land where the breeze blow, and flowers bloom, welcome to the place where true stories are told...
I learnt that we should always cherish everything we have,
Times we spent together,
Moments we miss each other.
For when we have to say good-bye,
There won't be as many chances as now,
And I persuaded myself to go on,
With no regrets,
To do what I should,
Never going to let you get disappointed.
I promise you,
I will try all my best,
It's my responsibility to make you happy.
:)
*Credits*
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[ Brushes @ M]
[ Layout designed by fern*]
Once again, I'm back to revive my blog after loads and loads and stuff un-updated :P
So.. Right here now, is few hours before I set off to Singapore for a three-day trip :) well, it seems like.. I don't know what am I feeling deep inside. I miss here so much, and it seems like I don't even feel like leaving for 3 days, so basically if I had to leave here for many years like I almost did before going to Form 1, I guess I'll be truly homesick by now :\
The last blog post was approximately 2 months ago. I guess nothing really changed, but to me, it's like A LOT has changed. Till now the most obvious change is that I changed my piano teacher, and for this I had once been really sad. And ohh my legs! almost every 3-4 days I would go to see the Chinese doctor to put some ointment for my leg and wrap a white bandage over it.
And I guess, the people around, was the one that changed the most to me. Things happen, and people change. I once back-stabbed, and cried over it for like few days or so. It can be quite ironic, when you find out sometimes no matter how sincere you treat people, some people might just take what they THINK as the TRUTH, which I'm strongly afraid of. When they think you've done something bad, they take it as the truth. There's no need of evidence. There's no need of explanation. Their minds conquer it all.
I tried my best to save every friendship. I don't want, and would never want to let anyone go. Some people ask me to just let go, just ignore, but deep in my heart, I know even if I promised them I would try to but it will never happen. I wouldn't want to let any of my friends go. It doesn't matter even if it takes a lot to get everything back.
Lately, I just realized the power of rumours. It can really kill. A person lies, and he tells a person. The other person spreads it to another person, and this person spreads to the next person and so on, until the very end, even a lie can become a truth. How ironic. How sarcastic.
Anyway, no matter how tough things go, I do believe :)
I do believe, life can be a lot better somehow.
I do believe, people might change but love won't leave.
I do believe, there's still hope in this world.
I do believe :)
I hope you do, TOO :)
Once again leaping off, this time to Singapore,
KangaMoron WenYi :D
The holidays are over! I mean, almost! Well, few hours left and I am still troubled with loads of undone homework! :P save that for the night anyway :)
So well, my holidays my holidays my holidays? :P
On Monday I had my piano theory exam! OWHH YEAHH I'M GRADE 7 NOW! :D one big leap to my dreams :) all the tough days are finally over! :P well I hope I can get distinction and heyyy, who doesn't? xD
Then next is LKT camp! The highlight of the whole holiday! :D shooo fun and I freaking miss it weihh :) although I sprained my ankle which is quite *OWWW!* but yet, I know it's a perfect arrangement of fate, because if it wasn't for my sprained ankle, I wouldn't know how caring and concerning LKT people could be, just like PMO peeps :) and I wouldn't experience a lot of things I'm pretty sure of that :)
Hmm, I missed the station games because that time my leg is really sore and my friends and group members ask me not to go play lurr :) anyway da Amazing Race and Mission Impossible is quite okay also derr :) tapi two of my group members wanna quarrel, make me sho sad D: but luckily at last they never quarrel liao imma sho happy! :D
The most happiest thing is the drama on the last day's morning! It was our last minute idea on the second day's night and we were like brainstorming like sakai! :P so glad that I thought of this suddenly xD and so glad that they were willing to listen to mahh idea :) thank you Spongebob Group 2! :D I love you all lots and lots and lots! :DD
Then PMO on Friday and Saturday! :D Friday got new song, play suona with rueying like sakai! :P had lotsa fun with PMO peeps after practise :) I'm so glad that there are always people who would be there for me when I'm afraid, and I'm so glad that after all those things I had experienced last time, there is not many things I fear of anymore :) thank you KweeYew, JingEn and JingCheng who are willing to accompany meee! :D
And thank you for those who really sort of stopped me from going to play badminton! :P I know you guys really care for me and I really appreciate it :) I promise I won't do anything that will further injure my leg okay? This is a promise :)
CHS Idol first audition in 2012 is coming up :) I don't wish for too much but I'll try my best and not disappoint those who put hope in me :D thank you and I love all of you :D
Tell me how to win your heart,
For I haven't got a clue,
But let me start by saying,
I LOVE YOU :)
-Hello (Rachel feat Jesse) :D
I was really lucky I never give up myself at all :) for I am always loved, always :D
P.S. PMO and LKT are two big families that I will always love! :D
Exam's over! :) and now it's da holidays owhh well xD having LKT camp tomorrow, and I haven't pack! Ain't I awesome? :P long time never update my blog lurhh, dear blog I miss you shooo much! :)
Today I've been wondering.. How can I ever stop myself from being so easy to xin ruan? My heart melts every single time I see someone being sad. My heart aches every single time I see someone's tears coming out. I just don't know why. And perhaps, that's the main reason I always get bullied, hurt and so.
How am I going to stop myself from being like that over and over again? Every single time I get hurt and I still never absorb any lessons from my own mistake, and I just go on with the scar and accumulate more and more scars all over my heart.
I have lost and gave ways to a lot of things but in the end what I get? I get scars and tears. I really don't know why am I telling myself there is still hope when I've been trying the same thing over and over again.
So I guess..
It's time to pack my mood and stuff for tomorrow's camp?
Morning session life! OwhhMyGawshhhh. Well, it's quite okay still, I rather study myself than those teachers teaching! I'm honest D: not only I have no interest to those teachers teaching, I find it VERYYYY boring to listen to them.. Not showing off or anything, I WILL put double effort in my studies from now on, I just only hope the teacher won't be teaching! D:
Humoresque and Secret Garden :) you owe me two songs! NYAHAHAH xD I'm waiting for you to play for me larr kayyy :D you know that we can change if we less thing to talk de hao bu hao :) don't shy shy larr me no shy you shy what jekk xD just a matter of time larr, haha xD
Got a new camera bag for my sweetie DSLR :) well, it's red in colour and it's shooo fat yet short! HAHA xD next time when I wanna go outdoor shooting, there's a compartment for me to put my water bottle and my purse! Nice yeahh :) I'll just need to bring this camera bag out next time then :D
Teacher said our dizi skills dropped. I know that, and I can see that very clearly for myself D: ever since I go hezou using gaosuo, it's like I don't really have the time for dizi D: I have to, like take care of shooo many things, dizi, gaosuo, my job in huayue, studies, my dreams, my cocurriculum, sports etc..
To be honest, it's not that I don't want to concentrate and put all my effort on dizi, I wanted derr, and I want it more that gaosuo! But I really can't D: I'm shooo disappointed with myself.. Anyway, I gonna set a goal for myself, gonna concentrate on everything with all my might.. Solo competition! I must at least make myself satisfied! :)
I should have told you I couldn't wait for that long! But I've break my rules for you owhhkayy! So better appreciate that you know! AHAHAH I feel shooo bad larr I like that :P
Life might be better if you know how to look at everything at a nice angle :) life might be tough, and it sure is, but, there're always something for us to be happy of in the end of the day :D 其实我们一直都在埋怨自己的生活, 我也是, 但是我也很想让自己, 有开心的一秒 :)
Seriously, every year ended in a cruel way for me. First it started with 2009, that's a weallyyyy sad memory I won't want to be reminded of. And then for 2010, I was really very scared to get into 2011 because you're graduating! Lastly before stepping into 2012, during the end of 2011, owhhyeahh, you know that.
I read through your blog, it made me cry so hard. IMY every single second.. And who I'm not sad? I AM! I just know you would ask me not to be sad so I won't show that I'm sad in front of you. If I would have collected all those tears I dropped within these days I could have made a swimming pool..
It's over by now. I've got to pick up those shattered pieces of my heart alone and walk on.
Good luck in your future I hope :) till now, you are still the only person who knows me the most..
Haven't been feeling this relieved for such a long time... So now's...PARTAYYY time and time to date with novels :D
So this few days will be like... HAVE FUN, HAVE FUN and have MORE fun :D Hohohoho, waiting for more and more outings with friends, if tak de, stay at home also acceptable gehh, might face the TV and computer for the whole day larr :P
I realise lehhh, actually quite many people treat me very good also derr, sometimes when I'm not happy, sure got classmates can realise it derr, although we're not really close, but at least.... THANK YOU :)
Me super-deee-duper love 还是要幸福 and mainly 好的事情! OMG I love this superrrrr muchieee :D nice to listen especially now de weather: raining in the night :) memang suit the suasana banyak banyak :DD
Quite hoping for tomorrow to come, 'cause it's 大扫除 for PMO and our group gets to wash the chairs.....AGAIN! It's playing water time HEHH :DD
So, time to continue being a stalker in FB and stick my head into the wholeeeeee stack of books HOHOHOHO :D
I have many dreams. Although my results are okay, and I'm fit for those scientific or mathematic kind of jobs, but deep down in my heart, I'm sure I wouldn't be touching these in the future, maybe yes, but not a lot. I would only choose to touch words, music, and one more that a lot of people don't know, which is.........the kitchen.
*GASPS* THE KITCHEN?! Maybe lots of you will give me this reaction but yes, I'm saying the truth. I'll be thinking of studying about French desserts.. And when I success, the first dessert I'm going to make for everyone will be the famous Crème brûlée! :D Here's a picture of it:
Crème brûlée which means burnt cream, is a famous French traditional dessert with a rich custard base topped with a contrasting layer of hard caramel. It is usually served when it's cold.. The way people enjoy it, is when they eat it, they eat the pudding underneath and the hard caramel together, then they can enjoy the crisp of the caramel together with the smooth pudding.
OMG I'm drooling adi larr xD Duno when only I can get the chance to enjoy this famous and delicious Crème brûlée... I hope I can get the chance to try it from the Queen of Crème brûlée who is Debbie Puente who lives at Michigan in US.. Haihh, so far away.........
Anyway, there are a lot else of super-deee-duper tasty desserts in French! If anyone goes to French, please tell me about the desserts or take photos of the desserts there pleaseee :D There is still another special and damn yeng de dessert which they add ROSE ESSENCE into it! OMG rose essence mann xD Ta-da! It's called rose soufflé:
Normally those professional French patissier make soufflé by just using egg yolks, beaten egg whites and cream sauce but some they are special by adding rose essence.. It's difficulty is superrrrr high :D Would like to try it :)
So... Everyone must be listening too much crap adi, so bye! :D
Stalked quite a number of people today, read about their past and had the urge to write this...
Like in the beginning of the year, we were all like.. I hate this class, I hate this school, I hate... Yeahh, I admit, I had the same feeling too. Last year when I got in Seksyen 1, I was like, I extremely hate this place and so on. I was, aiming to get into CHS that time. And when I first got into CHS, did I actually like this place? NO.
I regretted. So many true friendship starting to get along in Seksyen 1 but I didn't really appreciate. The fun of walking to school, the fun of going home anytime I want, the fun with the new friends of different races over there... I actually missed all the fun. How silly was I just because I wanted to get into CHS so much that I actually hated being in Seksyen 1.
But it was too late. The only thing I could do is to go forward, which is start to appreciate this place. Slowly and of course, I got a few friends over here and started a new life. I got stuck in this nice class and got along with these nice friends, starting to appreciate every single thing I could..
2011 arrives. Our classes get arranged again. And I got stuck into 2A5 this time. As I could remember, there are only around 5 people from 1A4 got into 2A5. Ohh bloody hell! I really disliked this class (I don't want to use the word HATE anymore) soooo much I really spend all the time I could in PMO instead of in class if I can.
I really forgot about my regrets I experienced during Form One and now, making the same mistake over and over again, which is that I never actually appreciated what I had. I'm actually..so blessed with all these, having new friends and stuff, but I really couldn't think of a reason that actually makes me appreciate and be happy in this class.
And during mid-year, as me and my classmates start getting closer, maybe it really became part of it for why I decided to actually appreciate this place. I really don't want to be regret again. Enough regrets. So, with some confidence, I hope that next year, I won't make the same mistake again. For whatever it comes and takes, I'll just accept it.
I miss my blog, I mean like seriously.. It's been such a loooooong time I didn't update my blog, and it's like so....DEAD. Oh sorry :P
Well, last night as I was enjoying my few minutes before the clock strikes twelve, I thought of a whole load of memories.. Those sad ones, happy ones.. Since primary school until now.. Why am I always thinking about all these memories these days? And all the memories keep surrounding the days I began my life in CHS.
Terrible. That's not a quite suitable word for it, because it's SUPER-DAMN-TERRIBLY-HORRIBLE. No one really knew my horrible life for that first few weeks in CHS, when there are very, very, very little friends, and someone...*I'm not supposed to say out* and I'm always.. ALONE. Thinking of my life those days, I wondered where I got those powers and hopes that made me live on.
And for now.. Life ain't that good too. Sometimes, I find out I'm just putting on a mask with a smile on it forever.. Maybe other people's impression of me might be like cheerful and so on, but seriously, am I really that cheerful? I doubt this. I might really be cheerful when I'm really happy, but when I'm sad, I could really be really sad.. When I'm cheerful, everyone's here with me, but when I'm sad, no one's really here for me..
Sometimes when I text a special person who I can hope can bear my sadness with me, the person doesn't replies me and I feel like.. Am I seriously really that *fill in a horrible adjective here* that no one wants to help me when I'm sad?
So many unpleasant memories in my past. Too much to be counted. I wonder... How would it be, in my future?
You DO know what you mean to me, don't you?
Oh well, I seriously hope you do :D
Hope you are seeing this, though I once doubt whether I should let you, or not :)
So... I quite miss this blog anyway, and throughout the whole holiday, I didn't even update..
And I'm back here again.. Sometimes I only have the urge to update this blog whenever I don't really feel happy..
I remember the last time before competition that period of time when I was really, really, very unhappy, until I don't even feel like going to competition. That was my most unhappy moment I ever had since I came in to PMO.
I was very sad that time, but I barely even think about this blog. Perhaps, too negative until it do not deserve to be in this blog.
And during the day of competition, I cried. Some people know why, some people don't. Some people think that I cried because we didn't get into finals. But I already predicted of it. There ARE some other reasons.
So I'm back right here, thinking of the things that started to happen these few days..
Am I back to my emo characteristic? Well, no. But I just don't know why...
So how for the rest of the months? I can't be living this way..
Ok so now I'll start forgetting these idiotic feelings..
People ask me got event with xxx or not. Jangan ber-lame lar you all... xD (OWHHHH btw since when I started using words like... 'ber-lame'?) Well, it's another ordinary year, with, perhaps, an EXTRAordinary Valentines... xD
It's around 10 now which means there is only another 2 hours to this historical day of my amazing life... OH WAIT A MINUTE. What on earth crap am I talking about? Okay okay, ignore the previous part I wrote. Hypnotizing: You did not see anything before this... You DID NOT see anything before this... Oh well. I seriously wonder what's with me today. Duh.
Owhhhkay I'm not expecting chocolates on my table like they do in books and movies... xD Last year's today I just realised that it was Valentines right after I woke up and then, had the rest of the day as a normal day as I used to. xD
Well, many friends, from primary school, mostly (xD) told me about giving presents to their gfs... xD Owhh, and I'm kind of impressed with their courage man... Haha. Good luck to those who want to give their bfs or gfs presents! xD
Well, time is getting late and I have to finish my homework to get enough sleep (my definition of ENOUGH sleep=4-5 hours) to get myself energetic for tomorrow... To tahan for the whole day and being even tired especially after pingpong and stupid plus boring perhimpunan.
Okayyyy, I'm done with my blog today. I finally updated! Just as XhunEy requested. :D
Well, have a sweet Valentines Day to everyone, and may God bless everyone on this blissful day, and even you're a single, don't worry, just stay happy too! :)
Bye everyone! :)
Signing out, Stupid KangaMoron.
P.S. Stupid+Moron=Super-dee-duper-stupid de moron! xP
Owhhh, well, I don't care about people saying how stupid I am, the most importantly to me, is how you feel I am. :)
So once again, I heard our favourite song.... Shzexian. xD
Just the way you are.
You're always that yeng in me, shzexian! :D
Oh well blog, here I'm back again.. 'Cause someone dowan to reply me, then I'm very boring now.. xD
DUH. Really damn sien. I don't wanna back hometown.........
No choice huh?
Well, just to say, anyone realize that the things around us are changing? Hard to explain why I said this. But, just a reminder, you can always find out who are those people who truly care for you, when you're suffering in a fall.
The first term exam is coming sooooon! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG. I don't want to! After 1st term, then 2nd term, then 3rd term, then it's over for this year! NOOOOO! NGAH.
Forget it, everytime when I think of this, my heart never stops crying.
I wonder how many tears trickled down my cheeks, uncontrollable, as I slowly walked to a place no one could see me. I wished no one could actually see the sad part of me. I quickly lowered my head, pretending I was tired, slowly wiping the tears away when someone approaches. It just seems so terrible that even if I had to cry I had to hide like this.
It's definitely and obviously NOT your fault, so forgive me, which it's mine, for being this way. I couldn't control myself. Just for that little moment. I wanted to cry as the raindrops fall on the roofs, as I feel the cold wind. But I know it'll only make me worse, so I won't.
As I always think that a simple sight of you is enough, I never imagined that actually, it's NOT. After what happened that day, I was like... Erm, I just don't know how to describe. I stood up after it, but at the end, it was my strong emotions that want to protect you pushed me down, right back on the floor once again. And, a new wound appeared.
Owh well, I'm not emo--I promised you right? You know I will never break promises. Forgive both me and my feelings... I know I can stand up once again, and stand firm on both my legs, but I hope you could lend me a hand, at least cure the pain of my wound, hidden in the deepest and unseen part of my heart.
You're a great person, I know that. I mean, you ALWAYS are. :) Just forgive me for being in a short emo status. I just hope we can talk like we used to, and I always miss the way you sit in front of me, talking about anything we think of. :)
I know it will be a tough year this year, maybe it will be even worse than what I expected. But.. Hope, at least with you, WE, can get through it. :)
Oh well, surprising huh? But surprisingly true. All of you will only know how to protect, oh wait, I mean, OVERprotect her, so what about me? Okay okay, it's fine for me if you don't care about me, but IS THERE A NEED to shout at me, and even blame me for the mistakes I NEVER do?
All you guys ever know to do is to protect, protect, protect her. I wonder WHAT is the definition of the word PROTECT in your eyes. I think, to you guys, protect, means blame other people for HER mistakes, think she's ALWAYS correct, and leave HER job to other people. Right? ABSOLUTELY.
I always endured, for such a long time, but today, I think I could NEVER endure again. But... So what? So what if I can't endure? It doesn't mean anything to you all, am I right? So what if I can't endure? You guys know me, you guys know that I'll never ever shout out right? I would really like to prove that you're wrong, but I guess it would NEVER worth my energy and so on to do USELESS stuff. 'Cause, it'll NEVER work. I knew it.
Maybe if you guys leave me alone, things will get a lot better. But I know you guys won't, 'cause if you guys did, you guys will have no one to blame everything on, so... Haih.
Well, from this sentence, above belongs to the post written on the 20th of January which I had not enough time to post, so below this sentence will be the post for today! :P
Owhhh well, yesterday had been a busy day for me, although it is not as messy as I imagined, which was, of course a good sign. :) I love my juniors! They just look so cute! And, too bad, they're scared of us! Well, I tried my best to 'break the ice', well I think I 'successed' a little larrr. Some not scared of me adi.. Haha. Credits to the smile I put on my face for such a long time... *OMG mouth chao gan adi! xD
Hmm, what about today... Well, seriously I'm not that happy today lar, 'cause 3 bad things happened together. And I won't mention it. :P Haih, I just feel like this year's really gonna be a tough year. I hope, at least a place, and some people can help me, at least, make me a little happy? I don't wanna fake being happy that often anymore larrrr.
Our competition song changed from tian suan ku la into The Lord! OMG. My once most favourite song! Haha. Well, I'm excited. xD It's a whole lot better, I'm serious. Haha. But I wonder whether Rueying will continue let me play gao suo or not, or let me play bang di or qu di, and I hope I can get the chance to play da di.. I know my hands aren't that long but I wanna give it a try...! Haih, forget it. T.T
Well... Currently not in the mood to blog anymore. So... Sayonara guys! Hope all of you who read this, or those who never read this, to be happy! I mean, for always! Just don't learn from me being fake larr okay...
Owh, as I always listen to these songs when I'm unhappy..
风居住的街道 :)
Sometimes When It Rains :)
They just seem to sound so beautiful, curing a wounded heart...
Nice song weihh. I have been repeating this song again, and again. :) It just sounds that graceful and makes my heart forever that calm whenever I listen to this song... Reflections of Passion and Looking Glass are also not bad, but I still prefer Santorini more. xD
Owh well, tomorrow's my birthday! Duhhhh. I'm 14! :( I'm older! NGAH. I don't want my birthday next year to come! T_T No one can stop the time for me, so... I just have to cherish the time I have now loh...
Hmm, this Friday's Hari Gerko! (I'm supposed to be more excited about tomorrow or this Saturday! xP) Oh well, I have no great expectations for my birthday, but I think I'm more excited for this Saturday! I'm going to have juniors! Will they be as cute or monkey-like like XhunEy? xD Hope we can get very close and be perpaduan as we chuiguan always are! :)
Lately getting more and more addicted to instrumental songs, those songs without people singing. But Sometimes When It Rains is still my best! Someone, when will you actually play for me? I'm waiting ahh... xD
I have a bad news here. xD Erm, my BOTH knees, this time, are facing the same problem like I once had last year. Ohhhhhhh duh. But during PJ and rumah practise, I feel like I can run faster and my badminton skills are a little better than before... WEIRD. But then, after PJ and rumah sukan, WHOA, I just can't describe how pain my knees can get.
I think that's just sort of a minor thing and won't affect my mood, so... I'm a little eager for tomorrow. xD Just hope I won't get a lonely birthday like last year. :P OHHHHH, I know I won't. :)
KangaMoron hopes her PMO exam results will not disappoint her.
Haih. Sounds so sad. 2010 is gone. 2011 is here. Haih. Last post before 2011 arrives. :(
I wonder why every year end ended this way. Last year, too. I sat lonely in front of the computer whereas my family was watching movies in the room. Tonight... It was a little different. At least there were people like ShzeXian and ShuRui who accompany me. :) And smses. And I think you slept. Awww, haih. And I never got the chance to wish you a happy new year.
School's reopening. Sad. :( Don't wanna return to boring days. I truly miss holiday life.
So I'm back to my blog, since someone is sleeping (xD)...
Oh, let me talk about OD. :)
Hmm, it all started with a BANG on my door then a familiar shout by Mum to wake up. Got everything ready, then headed to school. Once I reach school, walao, so many people got there earlier than me.
Wearing tang zhuang really quite hot de. I think I look weird lah. xD Performance ahh, okay lor.. Then went back to huayueting. Preprare to wait for the students to come in loh. Chuiguan is the nearest to the main entrance leh! So proud. xD
Then leh, performed Canon with Rueying Chinhow and Chuenhong loh. Someone said it was like a bunch of noisy birds worr.. Haha. Anyway I trid my best adi lar, I so char, don't expect too much from me, haha.
Hmm, after everything done, high gei loh. Keep on asking people to go solo in the middle of huayueting. After that leh... Then we went out loh! :) Walked to bus stop. Making bunch of noises while walking and of course, in the bus, haha.
Then lunch time lar, Alvin still thinking of eating McD worr! OMFG. He should be knowing that the fats in his body comes from McD. Then we went walking around shops, and also MPH, and it was a little boring.
When it was almost time we just went in to the cinema, watched that movie, and then get out from the cinema, and knew that Mingyee was also in Mid Valley yet didn't go to see her, took a bus, went back to school, then go home. Lalala.
Well, it was quite fun though.
Some memories, before heading to another year of boring schooldays, at least.
Hmm, this is what HaoRui just texted me, so I just post it here, and hope God blesses you guys. :)
"Dear Santa, I don't want much for Christmas. I just want the person reading this to remain in my life forever. " :D
Well, this morning, mum asked me to check my cupboard to find whether there are any clothes I couldn't wear so that I could donate them. Then I found one of my Indian costume which was sapphire blue in colour, which I wore during my 6-year-old Graduation Day performance.
I remember that time. For an unknown reason, I love to get along with those maids. Seriously until now, I get along well with maids. I just don't know why. xD When the annual graduation day arrives, those maids have to sew costumes for our performances. That time, our class was going to perform an Indian dance.
So the maids have to sew Indian costumes for our class. Those maids knew that my favourite colour was blue, so they purposely sew a special one for me. It made me seem a little more special, because there's only me who had a blue costume. For that I thank them very much. And now I believe one went back to Sumatera and another went back to Cambodia. May God bless you all. I miss you all...
Today I got three very special Christmas gifts. One, my sis accidentally jumped on my ankle while I was lying on my mattress. Well, that was pretty pain. But I think that's not really pain compared to the injury I got few months ago.
Next, mum pulled us to go IOI mall. At the end, I got a present from a cashier at the present redemption counter. It's a facial soap. I think that cashier thinks that I'm way too ugly so I need some help from some more useful facial soap? Haha.
Lastly, yay! Mum bought me my favourite CD! The name's Yanni-The Inspiring Journey, which consists of 28 instrumental music. YAY! Instrumental music! Wheeeee! :)
Oh, yeah, they're damn special right? Haha.
Well, wish everyone can have a wonderful and sweet Christmas tonight.
For Christmas, I asked Santa to ask God to bless everyone. :)
I love the CD I just bought, it just makes my heart so calm, no matter what, it just seems so calm, and makes me feel patient. So, I suggest you guys to get a chance to try listening to it, especially when you're feeling down. It proves that music is truly the cure to all sadness. :)
I love all songs, but especially one of them, I like it the most: In The Morning Light. I hope that you guys can find it somewhere on google or else so that you guys can find it if interested.
My mood tonight improved, credits to this CD and a call though it's not really...haha. :)
Still, before signing out, I want to wish everyone Merry Christmas! And of course, a Happy New Year. :)
LOL. Mind's in empty mode. I'm hungry, but I have no food. I'm not tired, but mum asked me to sleep. Well, the only way to stay awake to wait is to online. Rather than being in bed. It makes me sleepy when I'm not. And it feels so weird when I suddenly fall asleep de worr. Haha.
Just 'keng xam xi' with ShuRui for a while. Really lah. Have to ren ming laaaa. Not saying that you cannot do that things, and it's definintely not your fault, it's just those people outside who...haih. Misunderstood? Sheeesh. I damn dislike it when they do that de worr. Especially that 2 person arh. I control myself not to say 'hate' adi, if you guys continue, then... DUH!
Wheeee, just to remind myself now it's 11:38pm. Mosquitoes fly here fly there, bite here bite there. OUCH. Sheeeesh. Feel very uncomfortable de worr. But no idea lar, I wanna stay awake mar.
Nothing else to crap adi lar. :P
Let's wait for Christmas.
Hmmm.
I will, accept the arrival of Christmas happily. :)
Well, this day has been quite a nice day, except, two people, or perhaps, exact number which is three, who eventually spoilt my morning. At the first sight, I can already guess what are you guys up to. Other than that? What else? I have really, really been tolerating very well ah, especially you two, the other one, I have to forget it because I MUST. Lol. -.-
Stop talking about you guys lar. I really beh tahan adi. When you want something from me, then you treat me good la? If not, what you take me as? I don't expect much from you guys, seriously. Especially these days. Don't think I don't know anything just because I look stupid, I just pretended I don't know anything and do other things. Since when I became the entertainment for you guys? DUH.
Forget it.
Talk about exams. Marching... Well, we have semangat! Yay. Got HaoRui my dear cat (xP) and ShuJia my dear motor with me. Haha. Yerr, I got 1 question wrong! Ngah. D: After exams ChunHoe gave us some cotton candy, BLUE IN COLOUR! xD Usually when my sis buys them, they're pink de lo. Not blue. Seems weird lol. Haha.
Next leh, practical exam loh. Erm, seriously I not panice de loh. But don't know why, I don't feel panic, but I seem like I'm panic. WTF is this? Oh gosh lar. My fingers kuku adi. Haih. Suan liao lar.
As I and Jolyn once said together:
More hope, more disappointment.
Exam's over laa. Relax...... WAIT! WTH? Christmas is the week? Oh gosh. Which means next Saturday is 1/1/11! OMG. NO WAY. No way!!! D: I don't want 2011 to come so fast! :( Darn. Duh.
Thinking of 2011, I don't think I have anything else interested to post about adi la. I think these few days, my posts will be almost the same lar. All talking about OMG 2011 is here man! Whatever.
Every year when it comes to Christmas, I will be excited, because, it resembles a new year is arriving. New hope, and new life. New challenges, and new stuffs. And especially my birthday, I'll get quite happy and excited, eagerly waiting for that day to arrive.
But,
Coming to 2011, I never felt that way. You have no idea how much I hope, that time would just slow down. This year's Christmas...is arriving. At next year's New Year, is coming soon too. Haih.
Every once I think of that day, I don't know what's the kind of feeling that's in my brain. Whether it is sad, scared of being alone, or nervous? I don't know. And, perhaps, I don't even WANT to know.
One day by one day. I hope there's 48 hours a day. I don't mind even I have to study for a longer time, I don't mind I have to be busy or boring for a longer time, I don't mind!
Because I just hope that next year, that day... It just wouldn't arrive that fast...
I hate to admit but seriously, I even hope...
That my birthday won't arrive that fast too.
Sounds ridiculous.
Yet true.
Why does 2009 and 2010, seem to end in such a sad way?
Last year... Well, just forget about it. I wouldn't want to remember of that too.
And this year... I'm not prepared for next year. My heart wouldn't even WANT to be prepared for next year.
It just seems like a nightmare to me.
I even hoped, my birthday won't arrive, forever...
What does it actually mean when your left eyelid jumps? LOL. They always jump lately, last time it wasn't that frequent.
Erm, theory exam... Suan liao la. Useless thinking of the past. xD
Seriously I really have nothing to post too. Grr.
Btw, dear motor no 1 ShuRui, happy birthday! Hope you'll like the double lollipop I gave you! Though I still haven't give you the taufu lollipop. :)
Haih, now my right hand de second finger... can't play piano, type better don't use that finger, or else wanna do anything have to do, I can't do too hard. Haih. :( Now de Jay Chou 'Return to Past' piano piece... I can't stretch one octave adi, my second finger is so important in this song, and now... :( I wonder when can it be better...
Day after tomorrow is my practical exam. Oh wtf. Releasing stress by hitting my blanket. Oh my kelian de blanket. Listening to 童年的回忆. Awww, such a cute little song. The cd even cute. 梁祝 concert DVD almost made my laptop spoil. Suddenly whole thing lag gei, then I scared liao, straightaway take out the DVD. THen fly to Youtube to listen. Phew, luckily still okay.
Yesterday... Well I don't wanna talk about it. If you two ever realize there's anything different of me, then you both should have figured out what's happening la. You both are sort of getting me annoyed by what you both always say about me. When you both start to talk about me in the beginning, I was tolerating, ignoring, but then until now, you both never stopped, except feeling disappointed and annoyed, I don't know what else to say. I just wanna say that I had enough. I won't last long tolerating you guys if you guys still continue.
Computer OS corrupted. Oh please. Now have to reformat it, AGAIN. Seriously I had enough of this computer already. Spoil and spoil again. It never stops. Then all the blaming come to me. Excuse me? Is it my fault again? I think I really got used to it already. So, I think, it doesn't really matter anymore. Sounds so...ironic.
I have seriously no appetite for lunch today. But I was forced to eat. Haih. Forget it.
Talk about something else lah. Last night I finished watching 义海豪情. Fuyoh, that's cool. A nice movie indeed. No wonder both the main characters won the prize. Touching and awesome.
School's starting soon. I wonder why time passes so fast. NO WAY. I'm not ready for next year, especially when next year it's...well, I wouldn't want to think of it. Hope, that day won't come that fast.
Hmm, raining liao wor. Sat in front of the window, looking what's outside. :) Oh, and I want to change my blogskin! Desperately! Haha. Simple is nice, I love to say this lately, haha. But I can't find a nice and satisfied blog skin. What to do? I don't even know what I want. All I know, is that I want a simple one, black or white or sapphire blue and dowan those stripes arh whatever unusual punya deco. Haha since when I became so picky ah?
Finally ah, yesterday didn't stalk Hao Rui's blog then today she update adi, haha. Then realize many people same with me leh. Guan mo hui that day no mood to eat breakfast. Hao Rui still lucky, got mood to eat at least a bit. I remember when it was Alvin's guan mo hui, he asked me to accompany him go eat oh, at the end reach school adi then he said he no mood to eat. So he bought something to drink at the canteen then never eat other things adi.
I wonder why am I so different. I no mood to eat at all, haha. Mum prepared some bread for me, but at the end I gave mum to bring to office for her to eat. Then after guan mo hui, went to *unknown place* to eat until shuang shuang, haha. I think it's Ipoh Chicken Rice there. xP
I'm still thinking whether I want to change the blog skin or not. This one seems fine to me, and it saves me a lot of time if I never change the blog skin. Or else I would have to change the HTML, here and there, oh no, that will be damn crazy for me. So final decision is...just remain the same la haih.
Well, the Highlight Of The Week for me this week is practical exam. I've been worried about this the most among the other exams. Guan mo hui isn't a big threat, since I've been practising so much. Practical leh, I tried my very best liao de lar, but dunno what will happen to me for the yue qu chang shi part. I hope everything will just go fine la...
Haih, feel boring ah. Wonder whether I should go offline or not.
Final decision...go watch tv la, too sien liao la.
Hope, to see you soon. And hope to hear from you soon.
I'm quite happy today, 'cause I met two old friends today. And the both of them are girls. One of them, we have not seen each other for two years I think, she's my ballet friend, and because of some family problems, she was forced to stop learning. And finally, once again today, we met again, because her mother allowed her to learn again.
And another friend, erm, I don't think I really know her. I'm sorry that I don't even know her name. But she knew me because she was from Yak Chee too, haha. She was working in a restaurant, and mum brought us to eat there after ballet, then when I was eating, she came and ask me whether I am Thye Wen Yi, then I think I saw her before in Yak Chee. I suppose she's from 6P last year, if not mistaken.
Well, erm, I think I had a muscle cramp when I was....bathing! OMG. I didn't know why I can have muscle cramp when I am bathing! LOL. Anyway I think it was. Damn pain de. Pain until I can't stand up, have to sit on the floor. Want to shout but I know cannot. Long time didn't have muscle cramp liao lo. Haha.
This morning leh...I thought we were going to be at Dewan Kuliah, so I purposely brought my jacket de wor! But at the end become at hua yue ting adi. Too bad lar. The disadvantage of having guan mo hui in hua yue ting, is that my butt will get OMG-ly pain after sitting for so long! And I was so hungry! Haha. I told yupyn I wanna eat her up because I always call her fish cake! :D
Hmm, today I'm quite tired. Legs...I think I'm used to it. Haha.
Well, it's 12 something already. Tomorrow got gathering in IOI leh... Hmm. I think I gotta go. So, goodnight world! :D
Well, today was quite a good day for me I think. Guan mo hui. (: Although I was quite disappointed with my performance, which was obviously a little worse than before, but I think, my efforts aren't wasted, I was a little satisfied with some parts of my performance, which, I think is enough. (:
Hmm, I need to thank lots of people. Some who purposely wasted few cents to sms me that two words GOOD LUCK although I'll see them in school who are my dear Goe Ling and Lydia. And thanks to Xhun Ey, for telling Lydea in tuition that I have exam in PMO tomorrow (DUH!), so I got another wish from her. (: And many other people like Shu Rui ah, Xhun Ey and so on who randomly gave me a wish or something else et cetera, and Chun Hoe, Ruey Ying, Chuen Hong, Tan Jie and Hao Jian who taught me. THANKS.
Uh oh, bad news now. I just hurt my leg, and now I have to wear socks to walk better. Now I walk like some crippled guy, omg laaa. Next Tuesday got marching extra class somemore worr. Sei loh. Better get well faster laaa pleaseeeee.
Tomorrow I'm going to Cameron Highlands after going back to hometown. So..haih, you know, I won't be having the chance to online from tomorrow till Monday afternoon or even later. Oh, that will be boring, I know, haha.
I wonder why sometimes I get impatient these few days. x)
I plan to sleep at 1am tonight and spend tomorrow morning's time sleeping in the car. :P
Awww, it's The Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of The Dawn Treader! Haha. Looks nice! :P Wanna go watch! Haha. I wonder whether I have to chance to watch it in the cinema or not. Long time never go cinema liao la, go also go IOI only de...I want to go other place de cinema! :P
Hmm, 6H'09 gathering is going to be held at 12/12. LOL, my cousin's birthday. I think he's going to the gathering too, I wonder whether anyone planned to celebrate for him as well, haha. And I want to see whether he is still that rude 'cause we're in different classes this year, he's in 1A3 but I'm in 1A4, haha.
Cheekaboom. :D Happy sand day! Haha. Today chuiguan hyper again lo. Joke time again during lunch. Too bad Xhun Ey arr, tell the joke at the wrong time, Chuen Hong didn't become rice-fountain lo. Haih, too bad la. Haha. Aluba aluba! x)
Today's a nice day la. So I'm in a very good mood. Credits to...haha. That's why I'm blogging! And partly is because I'm not playing rs today, haha. If I'm playing then I don't think I have the time to blog! Haha.
Hmm. 22.11.2010. xD Something interesting happened. I didn't know that it would be a beginning to everything. Haha.
Tuesday we had theory class. It was...hmm, okok la. But it was super fast man. They thought us things we learnt from Grade 1 till 5 in such a short time! Still not bad la, at first I thought: Wah OMG, 9-12, 3 hours weih, will sien de or not? And I realize it wasn't that boring after all! That day chuiguan hyper. Sorry HaoJian and YeeWei! xD
Wednesday was cool. Haha. I would like to have it again. :P Not to mention that it's actually quite boring when I have to stay in PMO till 6. But I could consider it better than staying at home. Slept there for almost an hour today. Haha.
Thursday was boring. Went to the hospital 'cause my grandfather had to do some checkup. When we reached home around 2 which was OMG-ly sunny and hot, we found out that our grandparents' bunch of keys doesn't include the key for the wooden door. So we were doomed. OMG. My shirt was wet with my sweat. Finally dad came back home to open the door for us. We waited for 45 minutes I think. FINALLY. Phew.
Friday I went to PMO. First day of guan mo hui. HaoJian was late! That time I thought I heard him say that he bathed for 20 minutes! But yuan lai it was his father...or mother ah? Haha. Wow it was quite scary for me, though I had years of experience standing on the stage giving speeches and so on without being nervous or scared. Tiensing ah tiensing, nervous until almost forgot his name adi, at first he can play really well de loh. So I warned myself not to be nervous. Haha.
Saturday was the second day of guan mo hui. Held in Dewan Kuliah. Saw Xhun Ey, Hong Liang, Yu Yan and Derrick's dizi performance, started to go very worried that my dimo won't have the dizi sound, then the sound will be OMG-ly horrible. Maybe no sound at all somemore. Mu gui ying gua shuai during evening. Aiyayah, Derrick bought his bang di adi worr, teacher forgot about mine. T_T
WELL! Today's Sunday. x) Had ballet this morning. Erm then...played RuneScape with HaoRui and HaoJian! Haha. Then relatives came over and had dinner together. Well, when they come over, I can only eat very less, haha. So it's easy for me to get hungry. Haha.
Erm, conclusions:
1) Bring jacket if possible when we have guan mo hui in Dewan Kuliah!
2) Must remind teacher what you want to buy or else he'll forget it! (I bet he's going to forget next Friday, haih)
3) Eat something before dinner when relatives come over! I'm starving now but I can't eat anything! :(
4) Must prepare more for guan mo hui or else I'm going to end up regretting!
That's all for this week. Hope you guys had a nice holiday. And don't ask me whether I'm going overseas or not, well, I'm telling you here, I'M NOT. (:
(Note: This post is written on Saturday night, completed on Monday afternoon, so the date might be today's date.)
I love cleaning up, seriously. 'Cause I like to be tidy. Haha.
Today started with a shout at me by my mum for waking up late. 7.30am. LATE. OMG. I wished I had a pair of wings. To fly to school immediately before my mum gets late.
Reached school around 8am I think. Waited in huayueting, chit-chat with yuling (oops I forgot whether this is her correct spelling of her name) and shzexian. Then chunhoe gave us briefing on what to do 'cause our dear leeyuan and jiawen is not here. Awww. x)
Chuiguan started to get to work. Yeah, we're yeng. At first we tidied up our dizi. Beside me was yeewei and yiyan cleaning the sheng. They were singing! (: And dear wernyean was jealous 'cause I kept calling yeewei 'mama' but not her. Haha. x) While cleaning, someone, I think it's chunhoe, turned on mu gui ying. We were humming to the melody! (:
Next, we carried those chairs in huayueting downstairs to clean. Hyper chuiguan started being hyper. (: We put those chairs outside, then Derrick used the hose to spray water on those chairs. Then some of us went to wipe them. Then suddenly we thought of putting them under the sun to dry them. So we moved to wipe them under the sun. Woohoo.
Soon I was the only one staying under the sun, walking around to see whether those chairs were still dirty or they had dried up. Haha. Yuyan asked me why I can tahan, and I said sunlight in the morning has vitamin A! Noooo it's VITAMIN D, said yuyan and jiani. x) Well, it's good what. Oh and I forgot to mention, while we were washing those chairs, we couldn't stand wetting our socks, which was apparently uncomfortable wearing wet socks right, so we took them off! Yeahhhh. And so I was barefooted, standing at the road, under the sun for *unknown* hours. I can say that's fun. My legs are warm. (:
Then after we finished, we sat on those chairs stacked up, telling jokes and laughing insanely. It was fun, haha. HYPER! We laughed so loud until yangqin, ruanliu and pipa group people at the corridor non-stop looking at us. Then when we went back upstairs, percussion group people were still cleaning their stuff. And then chunhoe said there will be free orange juice for us if we managed to finish up within 10 minutes, which is quite impossible. x)
I don't think my help is needed at the cleaning-gong place, so I went to help to polish shi mian luo and yun luo. Quite fun. x)
What now? I got 80 and above for my purata as you said, and then? Now you try to forbid me to go to PMO just because you said that I never work as hard as how I prepared for PMO exam for the school's third exam? I got what you wanted! And for me? I get nothing in return, not even a simple request from me to go to PMO for practises.
I don't know what to say. I'm speechless.
You said that I never balance PMO and my studies well. Well, if I didn't, I wouldn't even study for my exams okay? I wouldn't get the ranking you hoped I would get okay? I wouldn't be remaining in the A class okay? My purata could have dropped till 70 something okay?
Today's the last day of school. Seriously, I'm happy that I can get away from this class. Maybe my thinking's wrong but I think I have the right to dislike someone. The 3 main guys who always ruin my Form 1 life. -.-
And these days when another guy adds in to the rumour-spreading group, well, I'm dead. Stop it guys, it doesn't mean that if I never bully the guy sitting beside me like the other girls do, means I like him okay? WTH la.
Thinking back through this year, it has been quite a meaningful year. I joined PMO, had some new friends, and of course learnt something new! DIZI! x)
Hmm, I can't wait d la. If you see this then you'll know what I mean lo. Haha. I don't know whether the handphone will vibrate or not. :(
KangaMoron is currently suffering from freaking stomachache. Feels like there's something grumbling in her stomach. Not hungry, it's painful. Haha. Not feeling well. :(
Being bullied by classmates around me. Not feeling well until I didn't even care to bother about them. Just laid my head on the small bag Jamie lent to me. OMG I almost oversleep till forget that the second bell is ringing. Haha.
Today's the second last day of school liao la, so don't want to waste my energy on being angry at useless people. Waste my energy and time only. (:
You changed. I don't know whether is it that you changed or that you are always like this. We're good friends right? I doubt this question. You always hurt me, though I don't know whether you did it on purpose or you are just joking with you. You always tell me you want to tell me some things but end up you never tell.
I don't know what am I in you. If you see this don't talk about it, I don't feel like talking about it, I hope you'll be the one I've always known. But remember I will always take you as my closest friend, no matter how you treat me. NO MATTER HOW.
Today's been quite a nice day, seeing him for few times. (: Hmm, and at least I've got something to talk about with him, though I think it's lame but it's better than nothing. Hope that we can talk more in future.
Feeling more and more uncomfortable, signing off.
Looking through your eyes, there’s nothing to hide
And you’re no longer mine
How could I survive when you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high?
Can’t stop the tears from falling
We used to be so fine when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you just to be with you
My heart is breaking
-Don't Go Away, By 2-
Hmm. He and I started talking a little today. I purposely helped him to flip the page over when he was playing the song. It seems like no ones going to flip it for him. Seriously after Chun Hoe and Tian Yoon talked to him one day, I dare not talk to him. His eyes are like...I don't know how to describe. They just seem scary, haha.
Hope...my dreams will come true? Though this is not a dream, haha. Perhaps other dreams?
OMG, PMO exam is here. How many days left? I ain't making a countdown.
Stress. :D (Oh my goodness, why did I put a smiley face behind that STRESS word? Fuyoh.)
It was quite a nice morning. Sitting at huayueting as Jie Chee started to ask me for my handphone to play games. I deleted the sms-es in it and lent it to Jie Chee (haha). Well, it was the beginning of some...addiction for him. -.-
Orange coloured stickers were given out to us. 'GREEN' was written on my sticker. Well, it was the same sticker with him. (I don't wanna mention this guy's name but I know some of you do know) I thought that it could be a chance for us to at least be friends again. But it was never that simple for me...
He noticed about the sticker on my clothes not long after they finished giving out the stickers. He shouted, convered his face like he was suffering in pain. I knew what was he trying to tell me. He was unhappy that I was in the same group with him. It hurt me. But I think that wasn't the first time I got hurt. So I decided to exchange my sticker with someone he would probably prefer to be in the same group with rather than me. What I got back is a sticker written 'BRIGHT GREEN'.
8am. We had a 'mission' to find our seniors. Mei Zhuen and Kai Hui didn't want to pick up our phone when we wanted to ask for some tips. Instead, they sms-ed us tips for erhu group. That was pretty unfair. Haha. At the end, we were finding for clues, aimlessly. We joked about calling them to tell them that we're going to practise like usual if they never give us clues. Finally, they gave up some tips about where to find our clue. At the end, we found them.
It was pretty obvious that we didn't understand the clue. Yet we figured that they were at outdoors. There were only few possibilities they could be at. At last we found them at Satellite. Mei Zhuen decided to run away, but Chun Hoe and Chin How grabbed hold of her hands and pulled her back to huayueting. So sad. XD Whereas Kai Hui was a little different, she said that she was tired, so she went back to huayueting willingly with us.
In the middle of the road, Kai Hui ran away for about twice. And we chased after her like she was some kind of...snatch thief? Haha. Finally, she was tired again, and all of us separated into few groups of people to stand at the different roadsides to prevent her from running to other places, which was quite hard for her to run away again. Haha.
Next it was the games Form 4s planned. They said it requires a lot of energy? But it was quite...seems like nothing, haha. Only chasing Wen Hao was the most exciting part of it. And when we were being tricked twice. I almost chased Wen Hao for 1 big round around the whole school, and finally I managed to catch him. But we were tricked! Twice! Haha.
During our 'journey', Mon Yun got thirsty and lent RM1 from me to buy mineral water. After she finished drinking it, she gave me the little balance of it since I was a little thirsty too. After finishing it, I was trying to find a dustbin around. But I didn't know that it could be that useful. When we were trying to find our 5th clue at the place for lompat jauh, I was asked to use the plastic bottle to dig instead of using my hands. But in the end my hands got dirty too, haha! Yet, that task was cancelled because most of the clues hidden there were missing.
Finally we were supposed to find Hao Jian at Block E. But after finding him at Block E like crazy people, we found a classroom at Block D opened unlike the other classrooms. So we decided to find him there. Well, at last we found him sitting and relaxing there. He was supposed to be running away from us but since he saved us from maybe, experiencing another experience like chasing Wen Hao, we should be sort of grateful. XD
Lunch was...crazy. Those Form 3s were...I don't know how to describe them. As they saw me passed by, they never stopped putting food into my tupperware. Though I shouted NO. They said I'm too skinny. :( Lydia forgot to bring her utensils so I shared mine with her. And she betrayed me. She said that we would share the egg together. But she didn't. Haha.
After lunch, we Form 1s gave our presents to Form 5s. And then it was the video presentation by Form 2s and Form 4s. After that, it was the Form 5s' turn to give their...last words? Awww, I miss my dear Mei Zhuen. :( She's the best Form 5 senior I could have. She took care of me like I'm her daughter. Although we've been only that close since few months ago, but I hope it could last forever.
When it was pipa group's turn for the sharing, I was a little tired. And I slept. Because their voices were so soft, and I think only those pipa members who are sitting in front could only hear what they say. After that, I woke up and it was coming to the end of the day.
5.30. Mum asked me to wait till 5.30 to go home. Jaykerr and Ianson waited outside the school with me till Mum's here. Awww, thanks. On the way home, head knocks the car window till I reach home. x)
Well, it's quite a nice day, I can conclude. At least, it's better than what I thought, haha. I was hoping time would just slow down so next year's installation won't be here so fast.
Well, the beginning of the day wasn't awesome. I had a simple breakfast at Kanna Curry House with...Alvin, and he was the main reason why I was in...a terribly...embarassing situation. That stupid worker there keep on use his hands to make the love shape. Wth la he. Felt like slapping him. Well, there was an 'angel' sent to us. Tiensing arrived, and of course, the stupid worker didn't make that shape that frequent anymore.
After that, almost...2 hours, I think, were spent to deal with the present, which made us quite...surprised with our progress today, althought there was not even more than 12 people who came. After finishing the presents, we tidied up the place and take photos and played around.
I stayed back till 5.45pm. It was quite boring after I played dizi for maybe one hour. I slept. And sms-ed. And talked, which was quite less due to my sleepiness. Finally, mum came.
It was quite a nice day I think.
But at this moment, I don't really have the mood. I'm waiting for something. Something that opens the door of questions deep in my mind.
And now I realized something, we Form 1s are actually like this year's Form 3. As close as them. Maybe the problem's only on a person. But we can't push the problem to him, right? But just honestly, today, we had a great day, relaxing day together.
I just wonder when, the whole Form 1 can be like this year's Form 3, including YOU.
I really wished that day will come, but I doubt my hope, maybe it's impossible. I don't know.
Watching 'Secret' at Youtube. Maybe I'm sort of outdated but I just simply don't care. Maybe I wanted to watch it because of getting addicted to few of the piano songs played in it. Lalala.
Erhem. Wen Yi's going off to watch the movie right now. So...sorry for crapping less. XD Well, you do have the priority to chat with me in MSN mah. Haha!
The stars lean down to kiss you And I lie awake and miss you Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere 'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly But I'll miss your arms around me I'd send a postcard to you dear 'Cause I wish you were here
Exam's over. Woohoo? Haha. Seems like my exam mood's not over yet. But I don't care. Haha.
Hmm. Let me list out what I just started to do right now, haha. Well, there's a 'Dear John' book in my hand, eyes staring at the computer from time to time, and the speaker's playing 'Do You' by Yiruma from my blog. WOW. One heart...don't know how many uses. Haha.
The splendid time might begin but once reminded by seniors that our PMO exam is not going to be that easy, oh well, I'm sort of...
Chuen Hong: I won't let your dizi exam as easy like that, you'll at least wrong 20 out of 21.
Wen Yi: Um, where's the highest place in chs? I would like to have a nice jump. I might start saying goodbye to you first.
Well, take it easy, says Siow Shein. Oh well, how could you ask me to do that...I'm pretty scared, I admit, though I have years of experience, at least 6 years, of standing up at the stage giving speeches or singing, but I don't think I can get over it by now. I've lost the courage I once had? Perhaps. I need something to heal this. Get it done before guan mo hui is here. -.-
Addicted to 'Vanilla Twilight' by Owl City. Credits to Ruey Ying, my hen. Haha.
Can start going high gei with Form 3s adi. Shurui I miss youuuuuuu! Haha.
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you I don't feel so alone I don't feel so alone I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink I'll think of you tonight I'll think of you tonight
When I hear my favorite song I know that we belong Oh, you are the music in me Yeah it's living in all of us And it's brought us here Because you are the music in me (:
Lalala. Got a little addicted to this song adi. LOL. Haha.
Nothing really nice to post about. Exam's here. And I'm...kan cheong. Haih.
Many thing happen lately. And I just simply don't know what to do. At this moment, I cannot do anything. Helpless. I feel sort of...relaxed. They just asked me about the problem now. Finally I can pass this secret problem to another two people I can trust.
All I hope is that this problem can be solved as fast as possible. And it'll not get too serious...
When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change 'Cuase you're amazing Just the way you are And when you smile The whole world stops and stares for a while 'Cause girl you're amazing Just they way you are
Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought to know by now how much I love you One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love
A simple song. With nice lyrics. Listening while having a war with Seni. Haha.
Well, I ain't going to break promises again. This is really my last time blogging here until the exam's are over. So...haha, no more asking me to blog until exams are over, okay? :)
Yawn. Seni's sort of boring. Science's more interesting, but I finished studying for Science so now I have to work out on Seni. 15 chapters, WTH. And additional with a spend-at-least-half-a-period-in-class-to-tell-us-ghost-or-lame-stories kind of teacher teaching us. Oh yeah, we're doomed.
Lalalawheee. It's been a long time I didn't use my own phrase, haha. Should be mine and shzexian's combination lah. Whatever. XD
So that's all for now. Exam's next week. WTH!!! So I think I gotta go study now. Or else I'm really in deep trouble. Mum wants me to get 85 for purata, in exchange for those English novels I bought in the book fair! Okay, stop crapping (haha). Buh-bye.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought to know by now how much I love you The world may change my whole life through But nothing's gonna change my love for you
Under your wings I am forever
Under your open skies I soar
Because your love for me was everything
I needed to be strong
I'm always home
Under your wings
--Under Your Wings by Lin Yu Chun--
Nice song. have been repeating this song for...N times? Haha. Really nice song lah. Haha.
Well, the world's starting to get serious and serious for exams. So I can't be left out. Haha.
It's quite enjoying when I listen to this song and study together. I suggest you to do this, haha.
Why my little finger wanna get hurt? My left little finger just got hurt when I was playing piano this morning. I almost screamed when the pain ran through my bones. Mum said I should be avoiding playing the piano with my little finger first. Scales start with little finger, arpeggios too. And diminished 7th and staccato scales too! It's killing me. T.T
Today's goal:
1) Finish Science Chapter 1-7
2) Program Nilam -- write all the books I have at home XD
3) Seni!!!
Oh yeah, I'm running out of titles. Eventually I'm breaking my promise to leave this blog unattended until the exams are over. But because of a special request by a special person, I decided to continue blogging. Aiyah, don't bother ba liao lah. XD
Today was funny. We thought that there will be no electricity from 9am till 5pm. But at the end when it was almost 9:30, nothing happened. So I thought that it's nothing and turned on the computer. Okay. So guess what happens next? At 10:35, if not mistaken, woooh! No electricity! Oh great then.
So I'm currently at my aunt's apartment at Puchong Intan. It's awesome and cool right here. I love the wind. It's more windy here compared at my house, haha. The wind blew my hair that makes me look like sakai. XD No MSN now, only left Facebook, Blogger and SMS! Whatever.
Cannot listen to songs somemore. The laptop's at the living room and grandparents are watching TV. Impossible for me to turn on the speaker while they are watching TV.
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And my cute little cousin brother Justin. After we went to fetch him home from kindergarten, his mum asked him to take a nap. But he was too excited because we were there, and till now, when aunt was cooking, he secretly went off the bed and wandered around. Suddenly aunt appeared and he laughed mischievously then went back to bed. Aww, cute little child.
Tomorrow is a..badan beruniform competition? Well, I bet our little effort by tidying up our flute corner does contribute to this competition lah. Haha. But that day we only spent around 10 minutes on it. Don't know whether got help or not, haha.
This morning when I walked to eat breakfast and bu vegetables with my grandma, few poeple who chat with my grandma thought I was Form 3 and asked me why didn't I sit for PMR exam. LOL. They say I look so tall. Yeah. LOOK. If I was in the school, considered as super short already loh.
Hmm. I think I should appreciate this chance to study at such a windy environment. Signing off to kiss my Science book! XD Au revoir, je t'aime! :) (Go translate this sentence if you're curious, and oh, I do know you're sure curious de lah, haha)
A friend said that if someone always sleep after 12 midnight, then the person won't grow taller! OMG. I'm almost sleeping after 12 or sometimes at 12 everyday! Uh oh. Am I going to remain this height? NO WAY. I need to grow upppppp!!!!!! :P Haha, I know you get my meaning de...
Today hen ke ai de Shu Rui and other Form 3s taking PMR. Hey, Shu Rui, I know you always stalk me de, see this then you happy lah? Haha. Give you taufu lollipop after you finish PMR lah. XD P.S.: I also don't know where to get it lah.
Tomorrow no electricity. Have to go to aunt's house 'cause no one's gonna stay at home. Neither my grandma nor grandpa. Urh. I think going to be very sien. You also not at home. Haha. No piano somemore! No piano class somemore! I was so excited waiting for every Wednesday to get my exam pieces book but tomorrow...teacher is sick! Well, Teacher Joey, get well soon! :)
Today my sis don't know why, suddenly throw tantrum. So hard to tam her. I give up then. I went to bathe loh. Then after I come out, she suddenly become so happy, and throw a sweet to me. I was shocked and managed to catch it. Then she went laughing at my stunned face.
Haha, seriously, nothing to write leh. All the words I wanna say to you, I said liao loh. Haha. But this is still for you, haha.
Oops! And I forgot something. Hey, to the person who keep on asking me to update de ah, you also update lah, makes me sort of boring when everyday I go and open your blog and find nothing new leh. Haha. Well, seriously, it's still up to you. :) You won't want me to write that 3 words out too, do you? *wink wink
Just changed the playlist. The songs are:
1) Sometimes When It Rains - Secret Garden (I love this song the most!!!)
2) Spring Time - Yiruma
3) Do You - Yiruma
4) Love Me - Yiruma
5) Letter - Yiruma
6) Beloved - Yiruma
7) Maybe - Yiruma
8) Our Same Word - Yiruma
9) Farewell - Yiruma
10) The Moment - Yiruma
11) Moonlight - Yiruma
12) Indigo - Yiruma
Mostly are Yiruma's songs. 'Caure they're way excellent! Haha.
Haha. This is specially for you too. You ask me to update de mah. Haha. ^^
Seriously very sien loh lately. Friday's the best lah. Can stay up till 1 something. But last yesterday was fun loh weih. Form 4s having meeting in hua yue ting, Form 5s at hua yue shi, Form 1s and Form 2s no where to go. Haha. And the so-hardworking bunch of us sat at the staircase, masuk-baris-ed into two lines and started reading books.
Of course, we did make noises (haha!!!). Sau Jun joked, saying 'no group discussions!!!' but we, of course, still continue making noises. And finally when we had nothing to do, it's getting very boring, we started clapping hands as the Form 5s come down after their meeting or whatever upstairs.
Time passes so fast. So bu shuang. The probay came up liao loh. At first is Noel Wong ask us to go down. Then, next person....Derrick Lee...he came up, and said in a fierce way 'I know every name of all of you here, I can jot down your names de ah!' And then some people started to bu shuang adi. Haha, of course I won't lah. I so good. XD They're just doing their job mah.
I was actually so excited when you talked to me. I laughed all the way back loh. Haha. I think you start calling me Moron in your mind adi. Or maybe laughing at my sillyness. I don't care, haha.
Cham loh, exam here adi. Can I get 85 and above for my purata...?
Okay, I'm addicted in Final Fantasy...............'s songs. Haha. They're nice! By the way, lots and lots of people getting headaches. Like me. And that's the one that made me can't concentrate in Geo and Sej class!
So many things happening lately. They ask me why I always endure him, tolerate him, pamper him? Well, how do you feel, when someone was angry at you, you tried all your best to repair the bond of friendship between you guys, and suddenly because of something, you waste everything you had done?
Understand me, please. Why get angry when we can endure? Why break the bond of friendship when we are still friends? And, the worst, why, the audience beside us, all you can do is to spread this news? Fun is it? Does it make you proud knowing it? No. Well, that doesn't matter to me, seriously. But, some of you guys even edit it, and make it into a more worse story! Ridiculous!
Please think rationally. Please. It is NOT fun to change the story into a version that you like and spread it out. And, please, stay at the person's angle and think for them. Different people have different personalities, that's why there's a nilai such as 'TOLERANSI'.
Yet, I believe this thunderstorm will be over, the rainbow will appear soon. If we put in effort. We can do it. (:
This blog will be left unattented till my exams are over.
And, before I leave, I had a sudden thought, when I passed by a family that held a funeral in their house while I went to fetch my sis home from school yesterday. I saw them crying after the deceased, saying that he can't even celebrate Mooncake festival with them...
Appreciate every single person beside you, because, you won't know when they'll leave you, and you'll regret for not cherishing the moments with them...Regretting isn't something good.
It was the worst day of my life. I didn't believe my own eyes, but when the truth is in front of me, there was nothing I could do, except appreciating the last chance to do whatever I can. I think of everything you told me before, and I cried. Congratulations, you were the first guy who made me lose sleep for the whole night.
You'd rather I hate you? I'm sorry. But I won't. No matter how much it hurts when you said those words, it hurts even more if I hate you. Now I'm facing so many problems, family, relationship...I don't know whether I can confide in you. I don't know whether you will listen to me or not. I don't know whether you will give me a chance to have a heart-to-heart conversation or not. I don't know anything...
Every single tear dropped on my hands when I was typing this. I knew crying was useless. But I couldn't resist the pain. It's raining outside. I listened to the raindrops while recalling every happy yet short memories you gave me. You were, I mean, are, a great person. I couldn't stop smiling and wiping off my tears at the same time. I don't know whether I was crying or smiling.
It was truly a cold night. My heart wasn't as warm as it used to be. It was empty. I could feel a shudder went through my spine as the wind blew strongly. I wonder, what can I do? What can I do to save everything I have now?
If you ever had the chance to read this, maybe you'll feel annoyed. Or something else I don't know. I know, you had said, it's useless if I'm the only one cherishing you. But when you once said that we will try out best to maintain this relationship, what were you thinking?
I'm not blaming you, I's just blaming myself, why did I chose to tell you yesterday? Why did I tell you everything although I can still endure? Wiping off my tears, I tell myself, this is not the time to do the crying, but I have to work hard on getting what I want.
I realize that I'm really that 肤浅 as what Xhun Ey had said.
Son: Mom, what's happening? Mom: My dear son, look outside, the clouds are turning grey, the wind is turning strong, and the rain is going to fall...Humanity just wouldn't admit, that somehow, the world, is changing.
Seriously I don't know what am I writing on above. And I don't know what am I doing, too. Sometimes when I was studying, I look at the computer screen, I didn't know what made me do that, but I just went to look at the photo. The specific photo. It seems to stimulate me. Or provoke? Sheeesh, I don't know.
I didn't know why too. At first my tears were trickling down my cheeks. The next moment I saw you, they dried up. Even I myself was confused. I admit, in the beginning I didn't want to talk to you. I didn't have the courage to meet your words. But I convinced myself that I had to. Because I wanted to.
Before I had turned on the computer, I was confused with words and thoughts in my mind. Why am I always cheated by promises? Every promise that you made? That told me how much you had loved me? It was definitely, obvious enough, that my thinking was naive, childish! I couldn't stop laughing and getting angry at my stupid thoughts after chatting with you.
It sounds like a miracle. You hadn't tell me anything I wanted most to hear in our whole conversation. Yet, I was as happy as when you told me the words I wanted to hear.
I guess I owe you an answer: I hope you promise me, that please don't blame everything on me, it's fine if you blame a little on me, which I can bear, but not ALL, please. You had told me what you hope that I will change, but I didn't, because I try to accept everything you do, your habits, and so on.
Oh, and a special reminder, please don't blame me for having you as the main character today again. :)
Son: Mom, but the Sun is still shining, what are we afraid of? (smiles) Mom: (stuns) Oh yes, my dear son, perhaps, in some way, this world deserves a smile. :)
It all happened this morning. I don't know why. It just suddenly popped in my mind. Then all those worries came up to me. I was like...helpless? Fine. I don't know how to describe. I just feel naive. I looked at the morror after waking up. Haha. I can look so funny very I'm worried.
13:30. Every worries are gone. They should be gone earlier. Haha. Nothing to be worried about. In the first place, why should I worry? Everything will go safe and smooth. Everything will be fine. I laughed at my own sillyness, thinking of how worried I am in the past few hours.
Getting insomnia for these two weeks. I sleep at 1 or 2 in the morning and wake up at 8. Sometimes I could get even worse. I can only sleep at 3. I wonder why. I didn't take afternoon naps. Last year when I took afternoon naps, I only sleep for 3 hours a night. That's crazy so I don't want to take naps anymore unless I'm really that tired. What helps to get rid of insomnia? Mum wouldn't let me go out and study and I have nothing to do on my mattress. I can only spend time looking at the ceiling and think about things and him.
So now I should continue on..? Yawn. Fine.
Wen Yi, get back to your textbook now. Aww, stop being silly. Everything's fine now. :D
Damn hungry. Made myself fried eggs. I was surprised that eventhough it has been a long time I didn't cook fried eggs for myself, the taste was still the same. YOOOHOOO! Seriously I don't know what's going on lately. It's been terribly weird, for like now, I'm not connected to the Internet but WHAT AM I DOING? I'm chatting with Ruey Ying on MSN and Facebook-ing and also blogging!
Okay. Leave it alone. Well, after spending 2 hours and 15 minutes, I finished reading one of the Diary of a Wimpy Kid. That's cool. Haha. Ruey Ying just gave me a cool test on Bab 9 of Sejarah. There were most of them I didn't know, apparently. So, I think all I have to do is to try my best lah.
And...I had my 2nd chance in this holiday to practise my flute! Such a conincidence that today my parents and my neighbour are not at home! I was so happy.
Now I'm facing a terrible problem, which involves whether I should give up learning ballet. You know how guilty it really is to run away from hua yue at 3:30. Next time I have to do this too. I wouldn't want to miss he zou but I wouldn't want to give up learning ballet that I had maintain till Grade 6.
Mum said that I should be thinking simple. She said I should leave hua yue at 3:30. So what's big deal? But too bad she doesn't understand how important the practise is! I have no idea what to do. Mum doesn't like me being in hua yue for so long and so many days in a week. But I can no longer leave this problem aside. After holidays I have to decide.
Well, a sudden thought here, but I decided to write it in Chinese.
Stop the sulking, and appreciate everything I have now. No matter how much I sacrifise, I believe there will be something in return. It's only a matter of time. Because everything I have now is all I want to have. My wishes came true, so all I have to do is to cherish them, just like I had always cherish you.
Went to bookfair at KLCC today. At first I kept yawning as I walked because I wasn't really interested with those Chinese books. I almost fell asleep when I was walking. That's cool. I couldn't wait to find for English books. Finally, saw bunch of English books. Rushed there with my sis. Both of us walked everywhere seeknig for books.
At last, we bought these books:
1) Dear John by Nicholas Sparks
2) The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks too
3) At First Sight by Nicholas Sparks three! XD
4) A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks FOUR!!! =.=
5) Diary of a Wimpy Kid Collection which consists of 3 books inside by Jeff Kinney
Well, mum, of course, was like 'OMG! Why on earth will you guys want to buy so many books?' I convinced mum to buy because there's discount. Mum couldn't stand me making noises so she agreed to buy them for me. But she said there's a condition which is I have to try my best to get 85 for my purata! *Hey buddy, kick me!
LOL. Forget it. And there's something damn weird! My modem is functioning! BUT it's disconnecting every 3-4 minutes but it's still working! OMG!!! *Ain't this something good? Why OMG? Whatever.
I hoped my Sejarah textbook could have made me interested like those books I bought did. Duh.
